Death of Loyalty

Its carnal claws named her rebellious,  

her skin as tender as a French rosebud.  

Torso arched towards me as her I held her pelvis.    

The texture of her breast rushed my blood.     

Desire filled the animal in her.     

Through day she roamed with powder on her nose, yet by night her naked body sparked silver.   

I focus on the sweating of her brow.    

My love for her was nothing but brief lust,    

her craving was to ripen as a widow.   

I too held her pride and unwanted trust.

I slithered like the breeze from the window,    

our secret was spread upon the sheets 

in which my husband lays in sheer deceit.   

DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY

{DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY}

Probably the most underestimated statement in my perspective.

Its hard to always do what makes us happy, sometimes those things don't coordinate with our plans at the time.
If there is one thing I learned today is why? 
Why wait? Life is now, every decision we make effects our futures. YES, but that doesn't mean they all have to be good ones. TAKE A RISK! try a new restaurant, read a new book, meet some one new! Change may be hard but in the long run , its those choices that we remember. You never know if you'll like it, until you try it. Live spontaneously! We are young and crazy, its time to act like it. We carry bricks of anxiety and worry like tiny adults, stressed about the future and letting the present pass us by. Plans are great, but so is faith. WE NEED TO STOP WORRYING ABOUT THINGS WE CANT CONTROL. Life is going to happen, you like it or not. Live day by day. Know that everything happens for a reason. Good or bad, it was placed in front of you to learn from it, grow from it! Peruse what you love, don't let money stand in the way of happiness. If working drive thru is your passion, PERUSE IT, LOVE IT &DON'T GIVE UP.

Its matters now, because at the end of the day your decisions are YOURS and they impact YOU.
Remember to keep the person in the mirror happy, because that same person can inspire others to live happy too.

Its hard to change the way we are, I know it is.
Then again whats the point of being someone your not?
or living in fear of the unknown? Safety nets are wonderful,
but whats the use if you never test it out?

If you wake up and go to sleep happy then great!
but if your like me and wake up dreading another day and going through life with hate... think to your self. What can I do to change? I am I the one stopping myself?

Now this may not apply to you in particular but it does apply to me so take is as you'd like.
I wrote this to remember why I am working so hard, and why I do what I do. Its a personal note that I decided to share because I know many of us are in the same position, and I know it's hard. So keep in mind although it seems like its all happening so fast, lets not forget to enjoy our last days of high school and over all never forget why.

Note From Self

The genuine smile he creates on her face when they touch is completed with the thoughts of their future together. Oh ignorant little girl your brain is clouded by your synthetic emotions. Although your dolls and toy bears are in the trash, your fragile innocence is transparent. What/who will help you when he breaks you heart and leaves. Just like the others. Have you not learned a thing from your repetative mistakes? Remember your priorities. Remember the pain. Remember the cold lonley nights where u will cry in  angish, at the thought of his name. The word "LOVE" is much too strong for you to express towards this temporary experience.
Take it from the proffesional darling.

Not just for women.

https://twitter.com/reIatabIe/status/662048863709241344?s=09

Update.

Its a path, a choice of life, a way to live. The years at its peak become clouded by GPA's and SAT's. My final year of adolescence wasted behind a screen and piles of homework. I feel insane, lost and confused. Although to others it may not matter, I stress in fear for my future. They need it , they EXPECT it from me. I plead to the sky, not for riches or wishes, but for happiness. It's all I ask for. Poor, hungry, homeless, but HAPPY!

hmmm

Check out @AmazinVoices's Tweet: https://twitter.com/AmazinVoices/status/652929766056685573?s=09

WE ARE ALL BUT ONE

I've lost it all.

The name.

The house.

Even the dog.

I walk under a cloud.

Loaded,

With words meant to describe death.

They see me and cringe,

With judgment in there eyes

Their heads face the sky.

Nor money or food do I beg as they fly.

A simple yet hard,

hi or good bye

I am no longer human,

In their sockets

I became more than an insect,

And less than a tiger

Little do they know

They are one of me.

We share he same prayers

And cry the tears.

We are all but one

Fighting our fears.